Healthy or not, I’m realizing that my perception of my size is not reality. I do not see myself as big as I am. Literally. Get ready for the f-bomb people. I usually don’t feel fat. I don’t walk around with a big, fat, fat complex. Here I am, way bigger than some of my friends, a few who think they need to drop some pounds, and yet, at times, I tire of hearing about how insecure they are. It just hit me, with all the problems I do have, why isn't this one of them? Why don't I see myself in the mirror and hate what I see?
Recently, a friend of mine who works out obsessively said he was proud of me for working out. While I appreciate the encouragement, part of me wanted to follow up with, “I’m proud of you when you aren’t a jerk to people dude.” Might I be overreacting here? Yes, but I’ve been struck recently by how many people I meet that are both insecure about something and judgmental about something else. So would you believe I’ve never stopped to consider how many people have judged me about my weight before? Don’t get me wrong, I’m not naïve, but I’ve never really considered it because it’s never been a social issue or a work issue for me. Why am I writing this now? Because recently I did feel judged and my reaction...to spit in its face. (Dramatic enough for you?) To those of you, who do not believe that you are as beautiful as you are, get over it! Hold your head up high. If you want to make changes do it for yourself. Those people who judge you, and I realize the haters are out there, they have a world of issues far greater. I know so many beautiful people who need to understand, from the inside, how beautiful they are.
Recently, a friend of mine who works out obsessively said he was proud of me for working out. While I appreciate the encouragement, part of me wanted to follow up with, “I’m proud of you when you aren’t a jerk to people dude.” Might I be overreacting here? Yes, but I’ve been struck recently by how many people I meet that are both insecure about something and judgmental about something else. So would you believe I’ve never stopped to consider how many people have judged me about my weight before? Don’t get me wrong, I’m not naïve, but I’ve never really considered it because it’s never been a social issue or a work issue for me. Why am I writing this now? Because recently I did feel judged and my reaction...to spit in its face. (Dramatic enough for you?) To those of you, who do not believe that you are as beautiful as you are, get over it! Hold your head up high. If you want to make changes do it for yourself. Those people who judge you, and I realize the haters are out there, they have a world of issues far greater. I know so many beautiful people who need to understand, from the inside, how beautiful they are.
Fat…fine! I’m also friendly. Fun. More fearless with each day. Funny. A friend. Feisty. A bit funky. A force to be reckoned with.
My true identity will be reflected by what is inside and YES, I’ll keep working on the rest FROM within… Make no mistake, what I'm doing right now, eating healthier and exercising, is for me- for my health. This is not for anyone else.
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Way to go Mindy!!! I am so proud of you, for saying what is true out there. There are some more F words that describe you. Fabulous, Fantastic, family, free furocious. LOVE you
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