Last night sleep avoided me. Why? Only three days after beginning this "this that shall not be named" I started obsessing about goals; this is just what I said I would not do. Here are some of the questions that flooded my brain. Do I try to lose 10 pounds a month? Should I set a specific size goal for summer? Like I said, I have no need for skinniness, but I have a certain size in mind that would be glorious. By the way, to all you little people (take that as a compliment), this size I have in mind, for me, at my current size, still leaves me with plenty of shrinking room down the road should I accept the challenge. It's a great, first, comfortable, sized goal. Or, do I just focus on getting off one or two pounds a week? I also remember a doctor once telling me that with each and every 10% of your body weight you lose, it's a huge health benefit. Maybe I should work in 10% increments?
This pattern of thinking and questioning and cycling is not new. I've done it before. I want motivation but I also recognize that I do indeed have issues with OCD and if I start to feel too overwhelmed, I will quit. This is tough. See, on one hand, I really don't care about my weight. Screw it. On the other hand, I want to do something about. So if I do, than I do. Technically, I have A LOT to lose. But this is supposed to be about feeling healthier and prevention and getting energy. So, what do I wrap my head around here? How do I answer the questions circling in my head? Do I just eat health-ier than before and exercise (which I did today again by the way) and not focus on the pounds or do I pick one of those goals as mentioned above?
I need to get this right because I have a long road ahead and if I wrote all this and in two months I quit, somebody better smack me (on the butt preferably).
ok, so here is the deal. you need to just focus on a weekly goal. i know you. you are my closest friend. you have ADD galore and you will get sick of all the jazz. you must take it one week at a time. but you can't get upset if you only lose 1 or 2 pounds. because as you said earlier, every bit you lose is better for your health and if health is the goal, then you will be achieving your goal, no matter how much you lose. i know if you set a number, you will be too focused on that and you will beat yourself up when you don't get "the perfect number" each week. so there's my two cents:) LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteI agree with Korie 100%, just weekly goals, and make the realistic. If you set big ones, or long term ones, it will get to you. Do not become obessive, because that is our worst enemy. I am very proud of you. Love you
ReplyDeleteAmen! Weekly goals! And realistic is anything. Any loss is gets you to your goal of being fitter! I love you too! You can do this!!!
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